Writer's Block Jumble

She wrote these words on Facebook about three years ago. She was my son's friend. She was 14.   

Writer's Block Jumble

"I have writer's block. 

So. 

I'm going to write about nothingness. 

Or whatever. 

For a while.

Until I can think of a good idea. 

To write.

I know what I want to write about. 

But, 

the words aren't coming. 

So i'll just sit here and ramble.

I apologize to whoever is reading this. 

I'm just frustrated. 

I want to write about God and His glory.

but I can't.

and I don't know why 

It's annoying.

Dear God, 

help me get over this writer's block so I can spread your love and your words to 

all who are reading/listening/believing. 

Amen.

I might just go read my bible. 

I never have before.

Maybe

that would help

it's like poetry but stories and it's real.

I think I'll start with Revelations.

or Psalms. 

Those are my favorites.

Just from snippets I've seen. 

That's a good word,

isn't it. 

Snippets.

Along with eloquent. 

And jojoba.

and Marzipan. 

I need some fresh air.

I'm going on a walk, with my notebook, clear my thoughts and my brain. 

So I can feel some aliveness. 

In my soul."

I read those words on a day that I too, was suffering from writer's block. She inspired me to say: 

Sweet baby girl, I feel just like you. I haven't written on this blog in ages, and I so wanted to write something profound about, and glorifying to, my God. And I wanted to write it TODAY. Maybe we don't have writer's block. Think about it... 

Are there any words to define our God? Can any combination of alphabet letters describe Him in His fullness? Those of us who write, seek to paint pictures with our words, but is there a palette that contains the color of God? He is fuller than full, completely undefinable, and He is every beautiful shade and color in the universe. I don't think we have writer's block, sweet thing. 

I think we're tongue-tied by His glory! 

There are days where finding words are easier for both of us. Maybe, just maybe, today, Christ has given a special glimpse of His glory, just for us. And He has shown us that He is so big, so awesome, so full of glory, so uncontainable, and so indescribable, that we can do nothing more than fall to the knees of our hearts and worship. Our pens won't write, our keyboards won't click, our tongues are dumb... 

We are blessed today. He has filled us to overflowing with all of His fullness and we can't speak. It's too much! We want others to know, but how do we even begin to describe the indescribable? To define the undefinable? Maybe we just did. 

Maybe we just did. 

You and I ... together ... in our "writer's block jumble".

Did you read your Bible? It's real, baby girl...it's so real. And so is Christ's love for you. Do you hear me? He loves you so much. Know that today. Embrace that today. Let that knowledge wash over you. Feel Love's warmth. Feel His arms around you right now. That is the place where you will feel the "aliveness in your soul". 

Maybe I'll go read me some Psalms or Revelation too. Or maybe I'll just think about what a good word "Marzipan" is.

Thanks, Kelsey...you were an answer to my prayers today! Love, Donna

(2009)

Later that day, she wrote more words.

"Glory 

I'd like to dance before you 

to sing praises in your name

to hear you say those living words

that me, my soul, are saved.

I hope I live to see the day

that you're chariot will come

to shout the words "He is alive!" 

To see your only son. 

When I stand before your glory. 

Humbled and in awe. 

Knocked down by your beauty.

And in front of you, I fall. 

Thank you Lord, for taking away my writer's block. Finally. Phew. I'm glad I managed to write something decent."

She's 17 now. We've lost track of her. 

I hope she still writes.

I pray that she reads her Bible.

It's like poetry, but stories and it's real.

And that she's added John and Esther

to her list of favorites. 

Oh, how I hope she still dances

and praises

and knows that she's saved. 

Because He is STILL alive! 

Your only Son.

We stand before Your glory.

Humbled and in awe.

Knocked down by Your beauty.

And in front of You, we fall. 

And Marzipan is still a very good word.