"We can make our plans, but the final outcome is in God's hands". (Proverbs 16:1 TLB)
As it turned out, we didn't move. God would have us be here, in this place, at this time. He has assigned us this portion and this cup for another season.
Fast forward a few months to this morning. As I arranged my journal and my Bible and my devotionals, I sat back with my hot cup of coffee, and wept again.
If I've ever doubted the faithfulness of my God, all I have to do is look around me, at this place, at this yard, on this patio. It has become my Ebenezer.
"Then Samuel took a stone and set it up between Mizpah and Shen. He named it Ebenezer, saying, "Thus far has the LORD helped us." (1 Samuel 7:12)
This is my Ebenezer.
Here is my memorial.
Here do I see
"Thus far has the Lord helped us."
I've prayed hard here. I've sobbed here. I've fought for my marriage here. I begged God for my children's lives here. I've prayed for wombs to be miraculously opened. I've implored God for babies to be okay.
I've asked for guidance when I had no idea what to do. I've laid out fleeces before the Lord here. You know, "if you'll do this Lord, I'll know it's YOU." Ministry and service to God were birthed here. Ministry and service came to an end here.
My knees have literally been on those bricks, promising to have no other gods before Him. I've met with Kelly Minter, Beth Moore, Priscilla Shirer and Jennifer Rothschild here, as they led me deeper still through their knowledge of Scripture. I wrote parts of my book here.
I mourned my grandson, Noah here.
I prayed here when I was terrified. I prayed here when I was paralyzed with fear. I prayed here when I was hopeless, helpless and oh. so. weak.
I've prayed here for starving children in Africa, for villages full of people drinking mud instead of clean water, and eating dirt to squash hunger pains. I've prayed for Muslims in Yemen who just want to hear about Jesus.
I've cried out for healing. I've screamed for deliverance. I've prayed for employment for my husband. I've begged for provision when there was none to be found.
This place is sacred.
This patio is holy ground because God meets with me here.
In twenty- two years, He has Never let me down. You heard me, Never!
If the Lord assigns this place to us for the next twenty two years, I will continue to pray here. I will continue to laugh here. I will continue to cry here.
I have pressing needs right now, but I will not despair.
This morning, the Lord was here. He came to remind me that He has never left me or forsaken me.
This morning, God, my God, hugged me with His faithfulness.
Thus far has the Lord helped me!