Thursday, May 30, 2013

Thus Far Has The Lord Helped Us

Last fall, we were seriously entertaining the thought of moving out of the place we've called HOME for the last 22 years.  One morning, the weather had become too cool to have my quiet time on the patio, so I was cozy in the back room of my house, window cracked, a blanket on my lap, looking out of the huge window that overlooks that patio. With the thought of not having another spring and summer to sit in my backyard during my quiet time, I began to weep. 

"We can make our plans, but the final outcome is in God's hands". (Proverbs 16:1 TLB)

As it turned out, we didn't move. God would have us be here, in this place, at this time. He has assigned us this portion and this cup for another season.

Fast forward a few months to this morning. As I arranged my journal and my Bible and my devotionals, I sat back with my hot cup of coffee, and wept again.

If I've ever doubted the faithfulness of my God, all I have to do is look around me, at this place, at this yard, on this patio. It has become my Ebenezer.

"Then Samuel took a stone and set it up between Mizpah and Shen. He named it Ebenezer, saying, "Thus far has the LORD helped us." (1 Samuel 7:12)

 




This is my Ebenezer.
Here is my memorial.
Here do I see
"Thus far has the Lord helped us."

I don't need a journal to be reminded of the years I have spent here on this patio. There were days when I laughed out loud here. There were days when I cried out loud, afraid the neighbors would hear. 

I've prayed hard here. I've sobbed here. I've fought for my marriage here. I begged God for my children's lives here. I've prayed for wombs to be miraculously opened. I've implored God for babies to be okay. 

I've asked for guidance when I had no idea what to do. I've laid out fleeces before the Lord here. You know, "if you'll do this Lord, I'll know it's YOU." Ministry and service to God were birthed here. Ministry and service came to an end here. 

My knees have literally been on those bricks, promising to have no other gods before Him. I've met with Kelly Minter, Beth Moore, Priscilla Shirer and Jennifer Rothschild here, as they led me deeper still through their knowledge of Scripture. I wrote parts of my book here.   

I mourned my grandson, Noah here. 

I prayed here when I was terrified. I prayed here when I was paralyzed with fear. I prayed here when I was hopeless, helpless and oh. so. weak.

I've prayed here for starving children in Africa, for villages full of people drinking mud instead of clean water, and eating dirt to squash hunger pains. I've prayed for Muslims in Yemen who just want to hear about Jesus. 

I've cried out for healing. I've screamed for deliverance. I've prayed for employment for my husband. I've begged for provision when there was none to be found. 

This place is sacred.

This patio is holy ground because God meets with me here. 

In twenty- two years, He has Never let me down. You heard me, Never!

If the Lord assigns this place to us for the next twenty two years,  I will continue to pray here. I will continue to laugh here. I will continue to cry here. 

I have pressing needs right now, but I will not despair.

This morning, the Lord was here. He came to remind me that He has never left me or forsaken me.

This morning, God, my God, hugged me with His faithfulness.

Ebenezer.

Thus far has the Lord helped me! 








10 comments:

  1. Beautiful and encouraging, so full of hope. I love the space the Lord has you in, to meet with Him. Praying you have a blessed week Donna!

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  2. As I was reading, I was wanting to say, "Me, too" our house has been our Ebeneezer in so many ways - and He has provided. We haven't lived here 22 years - but it is part of our faith story and faith journey:) Heart-felt post - I just wanted to "amen. amen. amen" all the way through!

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  3. For some reason, this post reminded me of Dottie Rambo's song - -Just in Time. God seems to show up just in time.

    "I was going down for the last time, no one heard my cry.
    My voice was swiftly fading, drifting with the tide.
    When a Hand from out of nowhere gently slipped in mine.
    And I thank God He found me - just in time!"

    Thank you for sharing at "Tell me a Story."

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  4. I feel touched by your blog. I read about your struggles, your prayers on this 'holy' place. I wish you His blessing.

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  5. So beautiful! Makes me remember my own holy ground in my own home where the Lord has met me. I am encouraged to continue to seek Him in those places because you are right...He has never let me down! Blessings to you. Love, Rachael

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  6. Donna,

    What a great description of the Ebeneezer concept. Thank you for that and for your witness to saying that you have seen God's faithfulness. It's worship, huh?

    Nice to meet you. Just hopping over from Ann's link up.

    Jennifer Dougan
    www.jenniferdougan.com

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  7. Rejoicing in God's faithfulness.

    Delighted to meet you today. I hope you don't mind if I splash around a bit to get to know you. This looks like a refreshing place to dip into goodness.

    Splashin.
    Sarah

    http://justsarahdawn.blogspot.com/2013/06/on-daddys-toes.html

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  8. Oh, Donna. What a wonder, that God can be in places, that He meets us there, that He establishes altars and memorial stones so that we can put a trembling hand on His faithfulness. No, He has never let me down, either. That is memorial enough for anyone.

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  9. What a wonderful post, beautiful patio and great testimony of God's faithfulness. Thank you for sharing with us.

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